fragments
Saving my interesting thoughts, maybe one day I'll pick one to write into long form? If you feel called to write about any of these, feel free to.
In new-to-old order, so older thoughts may potentially have more "issues"...
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2025-02-14»
有人说中国高中的严格结构很适合ADHD。。。猛然觉得好对。只是时间上有结构,很多“开始” “休息”的cue,想跟随可以跟随,但是上课还是可以不听讲,晚自习还是可以随便做什么。。。有这种结构框架其实就很有帮助!!
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2025-02-05»
people trying to leave meta and organising /talking among themselves to go to whichever platform is highlighting one thing for me... there are many little groups of mutual aid or organising. I don't know how much these little groups communicate, as I'm actually kinda new to joining other groups (social stuff is weird and scary) but maybe, we should talk. have a "representative meeting" even. that sounds corporate and horrible but I think we need to coordinate more
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2025-02-04»
"mutual aid" can only go so far if we're not actually connecting with people, and build robust relationships and networks (I'm imagining something like a safety net rather than linkedin network you get me). like actual relationship based on personhood and care. not just political work, life work. and I also think, is this ever gonna work on a big enough scale? or, do we just all have to do this, and have thousands of these small care networks, which can also be coordinated when needed?? damn, I foresee so much people trauma and yt bs
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2025-02-02»
nothing will ever be good again because unless I return home but as an outsider, a "tourist", a stranger, never really needing my home to be a home again, I can not return. I have lost my home. I was always meant to lose my home. my home kicked me out is probably nore accurate. I have no home and everything else I see is just a replacement and I will always be aware of that. maybe one day I'll be able to make peace with this...
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2025-01-31»
I'm still sad about the fact that I'm "going so slow". who knows how long I will be healthy for. who knows what will happen next in the world, pandemics, war, ecological breakdown... how soon I will be pushed even more for survival and literally have no time and energy for any other pursuits. oh well, gotta keep going anyway.
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2025-01-31»
I really feel the disconnect from my generation, and other recent generations, to our elders. a loooot of us. we don't know how to speak with each other. the rapid 'progression", or at least change, in society, including the whole moral and value system, broke us apart, while lingering old structures still making us perform a certain appearance in some areas. my parents always tell me we are too different, there are a lot of things we just can't make them understand, and we just need to act like what they want to see. But, I want to really reach out to them. I want to understand what I didn't try to find out. what could they be like as a real person? what's their experiences of their time? what do they conclude from it, what kind of person it made them? do they want to know anything from me? There will be challenges, and my parents will be right in some ways, but I hope not completely. We need generational connection as a species. Sometimes the elders also just want to preserve what they can in a structure that make them suffer first and finally gave them power. I don't know how each person would act. But I also want to just treat them like people.
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2025-01-30»
Right now, the conditions for "mutual aid replacing capitalism" to even *begin* to develop, is not there. Even "mutual aid to lessen our dependence on capitalism" is not really possible. I wonder if we can create the right conditions by educating, organising, or, if we also have to wait for society to get to a certain state, and people will literally see and feel the need for it in their everyday. I'm not sure if fundraising, or say what I'm doing now, even is moving us closer to this, or not, or on a significant level or not. Something needs to change.
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2025-01-26»
suggestion that yall may not have a chance to use but can pass on as from a Chinese person! When u make a video on social media, that involves you saying a Chinese name or place name or even just a word, aside from trying to pronounce it (and probably getting it wrong in most cases, which is fine lol western languages and sounds vs chinese is very different, it actually makes more sense that you can't say it right if you haven't studied the language in general, and the struggle is funny. saying something badly and knowing it is not offensive, what is offensive is decided by a lot of context and not only a bad pronounciation. pls don't stress yourself on a perfect pronounciation! anyway) - aside from trying to pronounce it AND putting on a caption that spells it in Latin letters, because captions are important - *try also adding the Chinese characters on screen*, when possible. As a Chinese person, in most cases I cannot understand a very westernised pronunciation haha (if your pronounciation is good, you know it and this doesn't apply to you), especially when it's said quickly in passing, AND I'm not used to seeing something Chinese in Latin letters. BUT, I can quickly recognise what you're talking about and follow what you're saying as a whole, if the characters are on screen. even if you don't know which to use - traditional or simplified, use whichever you can! it's still easier than deciphering the Latin letters. Or even both! Other languages that doesn't use latin characters would also benefit from this I think!
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2025-01-25»
jumping off from what I said yesterday about building community and how it fails/breaks apart easily if we're just "doing things together"... and a comment I got saying "too many collectives run by individuals"... really want to start emphasising and building the human connection part of my(*) mutual aid community. not sure how it's gonna work tho yet
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2025-01-25»
I think one reason why digital hangs/work streams works so well for me is it's just a perfect level of "distraction"... and I talk to myself anyway so now I feel more justified talking to myself out loud!! it's comfortable!!
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2025-01-24»
I need to do hard things, I need to be committed to my healing and rehabilitation. yes, everything wants to work against that. yes it's hard. and even "healing" is so often a disguise to get you well enough and normal enough to keep it all going. but i can be a garden weed* that just wants to live, and still strives to live, despite everything. it's the only way. this has to come even after recognising it's hard, I don't deserve this etc. not to say "it's easy actually". it IS hard. and to live I still need to do this. *"garden weed" is kind of a colonial, human centred concept, but I'm more referring to this concept in Chinese called 野草. I don't know if there's a equal translation
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2025-01-24»
(responding to a post that talks about community building) I'm just wondering how does this translate? and even what do I want it to "translate" to?? even tho l've only been here for a few years, I know so often "community" can just break apart one day. this usually means some fundamental work hasn't been done. either part of the community (usually the already more structually oppressed people) felt used, unheard, or harmed constantly, or conflict happen and no one knows how to handle it properly (who does the conflict harm also ties into point 1). this is also because right now, the community we have is just a group of people that you can decide to not see anymore one day, if you don't want to be accountable, if you don't want to put in the work that's asked etc. we do not have a communal way of life. we don't have the commitment. maybe if we start treating literally Each relationship like community building... bring in the awareness of above and work to prevent it before it happens.. maybe that's how to actually build community? but both sides needs to do it. just getting people together and doing stuff surely isn't enough.
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2025-01-23»
doing things takes time.
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2025-01-23»
I want to go to one of those Chinese young people rehabilitation centres 😭😭 if u want u can look up 青年养老院 Be on xiaohongshu. it's a business/travel model tbh not a govt thing just to be clear. you go to a property, usually rural-ish, live communally with the other young people, cook together, different ones have different features and events... it's gonna heal me fr (if I find a good community), the only issue is infectious diseases ofc...
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2025-01-22»
so, about VPN in china. there are a few factors. the management/crackdown is periodic. both on important dates in a year, and over years. some years may be tighter and some years may be less. it may be in response to certain events. I vaguely remember people got in trouble with the police in one period, but I honestly don't remember the details, if they were fined, detained, or what, even what did they do, just browsing YouTube or something specific ("something specific" can still be fabricated/redefined) but my conclusion is this doesn't happen often generally (at least yet) and probably only happens in tighter periods. vpn companies sometimes get shut down. sometimes it is let live for a while. this tells me, the country allows some "illegal internet usage" activities, let it slide. but if you run into a tight period, and if someone have their attention on you (for example because you have been posting "sensitive stuff", or doing certain kinds of organising online, because all social media usage is identity verified and tied to your person) and thinks you cross a line, you *can* get into trouble. this time/right now seems pretty ok but I genuinely don't know, I don't have enough research on this anymore
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2025-01-20»
what I have seen re xiaohongshu: Chinese people living in china: wow! we welcome westerners! we welcome culture exchange! the world can understand each other and achieve peace! Chinese diaspora: ...... *annoyed* give me my 100% Chinese escape back
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2025-01-20»
can white queers/white people do something instead of pointing to me and be like "this person does mutual aid! ask them!" LMAO that's funny, you don't even follow me, I don't even see you liking one of my posts (which isn't "required" just so I/others see it but it can tell me some possible things, especially interacting on social media literally actually helps and is not just performative) and then I get a request for help whenever something happens to you personally
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2025-01-19»
if you understand India can be a coloniser you understand china can be a coloniser.
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2025-01-19»
.....actually, I think the reason I tend to think "negatively" or critically, is because I was in an environment (not just what's around me or my family... it is the whole neurotypical world) that trained me to do this, to be able to predict negative things that could happen and be more prepared. cos when negative things happen and I'm NOT prepared, it hurts a lot more. and also, when I'm negative and I'm Right, and I often am in at least a small way, because the world sucks, it really strengthens that way of thinking...
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2025-01-18»
why is there Always someone saying "you have nothing to apologise for", when someone apologise??? let people apologise (genuinely) 😭
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2025-01-18»
I started following this person (*note: in the original story I said who, but not gonna bother here) a while ago, then, they went back to china and started posting a lot more like this (*note: "this" refers to stuff like "this is the real china, stop hating on china and we are actually advanced and care for citizens"). I just want yall to know this content is very rose coloured. Shanghai is one of the biggest and most advanced cities and cannot be used to represent china like this. even tho you may still want to say "well even the biggest city in the us doesn't have that" yeah but I'm not here to say which is better. just want yall to know this view is very limited and biased. from what I can see from following all this time, I think this person is very westernised, up to this point have a life mainly "based" in the us (idk if they will be moving back from now or in future..), and doesn't have deep connections to china's reality (only a distant one). also people who are from big cities naturally have a more privileged background than people in smaller cities and rural areas in many ways. people from the biggest cities also was able to cash in the most on the past ~50 years of rapid development. and, people who chose to move to the us in the more recent times, are generally privileged (eg. has the money to go study, or access to education/job that facilitates it). by privileged, I mean they don't naturally have an understanding how life is for more ordinary and oppressed people. so their talk about "china", is likely naturally lacking unless they really learned what it's like for the people. your life is also easier in china if you like the communist party of course, and you're able to justify what they do to yourself. I do not and cannot. I really didn't like the way their content lacked nuance and the way "communists" in the west would rally behind this kind of obviously one sided content without second thought. the fact that this content is popular, it's like people don't want to actually think. another thing to note is, they as someone who has a western life, education, platform, and "chose" to "visit" china (instead of like, visa expired, deported), this person going back and saying stuff like "look how good china is (as a visitor)" "this food is only $2 USD", how is it different from a westerner doing it? I freaking hate translating local prices to USD... and them being a "communist"... it's giving "your favourite token poc" altho, on a more personal level, seeing their content also made me rethink, and slightly change some of my biases on china myself. yes, public infrastructure, including trains, roads, parks/ vegetation, nowadays can already be said to be better than the west, especially in medium to big cities. culture is starting to be celebrated and preserved on an upward trend, although not without problems. community service is improving, altho nowhere near good enough (and I think, they just want to do whatever without considering peoples actual needs yk) somethings are good
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2025-01-18»
(note: below is my opinion, and an ongoing discussion that should centre people who has been labeled with personality disorders/NPD, and the most oppressed/harmed.) the thing about calling white, colonial culture "narssisist"... I totally get what you mean. self centred, self important, lack of empathy*, doesn't mind being violent/hurtful, their version of reality is the correct one, can't stand being challenged, can be your saviour but can't actually collaborate with you etc... but you can't take the word "narssisist" out of the psychiatry, diagnosis context. it's impossible. you can't just declare "this word is not this anymore". language does work like that and can't be changed like that. the fact that you don't think the psych background and its history is relevant here just shows, you are not involved with/organising with mad people, and/or lack of understanding, and an opportunity to learn. especially, we can't label *people* like this... it has never gone well and always end up actually hurting us.
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2025-01-16»
"diagnosed with npd/bpd/other cluster b personality disorders" can be actually phrased as "harmed by oppressive psych labels" (other labels not excluded, but this is just what I'm thinking rn)
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2025-01-15»
programmers making "evolution simulations" is so funny to me. evolution is so bad at being optimal. why
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2025-01-15»
I am also reflecting on my messaging. I'm rarely "mean" on the other account, which I think is fine to keep like that. I know shaming can lead to freeze. I know hope moves people to act. so that's why I roll like that. but if someone is okay with being a part of this only when I'm mainly nice, but have a problem with the one time I'm not "nice enough", they don't see me as a person, and they don't actually see this work as mutual aid. those people can leave. what I AM concerned with is the increasing Detachment. people view stuff and don't take action. help is less and less, each one of us is running our own (1 or 2 or 3) campaigns so we each ask others to share Ours and can't share in return because ~the algorithm~ punishes us for sharing "too much". I wouldn't say there are less people wanting to help, but we are all poorer, and new people joining in on sharing doesn't work as well as before. I have shit reach but I've been having shit reach for all this time and it was better before. what is it??
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2025-01-13»
people who are struggling (as in, the group in general) are ALWAYS calling for help but comfortable people (who are apparently "just like us" and we should unite with because they're NOT the billionaires) occasionally pop up and shout "we need to work together" and then don't do anything/wait around. be serious
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2025-01-12»
is there like a information processing category of stims?? my partner likes to read number plates, not in the exact letters and numbers, but trying to make it phrases. And I like to figure out what words acronyms stand for
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2025-01-12»
an interesting phenomenon. some white people have directly reached out to me for help with fundraising, and barely any people of colour have. (there's been 2 I can remember, and only 1 from the MA account) this could have a few reasons/factors. 1. they picked up I haven't post many campaigns for POC (a unspoken rule; when the post doesn't mention, assume white). 2. white people are more comfortable to ask for help from "strangers"/someone they don't know personally and haven't personally trusted, it's harder for POC to trust a stranger to share vulnerable details in the asking for help process. 3. white people, compared to POC, feel more comfortable to "ask for help"/show that you need help, especially to someone you don't know 4. POC are more supported by family and extended family more than white people on average (someone else brought up this point) 5. white people have more time and energy to ask for help. what do you think? (*later someone also suggested I can make fundraising for POC an explitic priority of the page. Will do when I'm able)
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2025-01-11»
intel from hospitality worker informant (my partner). coffee prices are gonna increase hugely due to fires everywhere
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2025-01-11»
how l'm reacting to kitties "not listening to me" when I "have their best interest in mind" is really mirroring my own mother...
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2025-01-10»
lonely men taking emotional space and labour from women and femmes. has alway been happening under patriarchy. and because I think people deserve community, company, friendship, I always provide what I can. but I don't think they think the same about me. they just come to take something and then it's silence.
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2025-01-10»
as a person, I still don't know how to deal with people's freeze response towards injustices. I'm telling you small actions you can do, why are you not doing them? nervous system doesn't let you? so... now what? I know I should provide space and understanding, but sometimes that doesn't move them from inaction to action. maybe, likely, they need more time. I understand how hard it is to "rewire" a thought pattern. and they didn't want to do this, it's the same fucked up world that made them like this. but knowing all this, I still find it hard to talk to people like this as a person. which is why I keep also fucking up the above. ifl was ever in a "counselling" position, and don't know the person, well, personally, would I be able to do differently? if so, will I be able to "achieve the aim" and have one more comrade fighting alongside us? is it wrong to have a goal when talking to people?
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2025-01-10»
thinking more about "preventing burn out". when going through (attempt) job searching. when going through the application/interview process, we are told to show our best selves, and mould our resumes/interview answers to the role description and company values. when starting a new job, we're told to do our best and even "go above and beyond", if we want to "keep the job". if there is a probation period (l've never had one so l'm guessing). the pressure to do so is probably even higher. this sets us up for burn out. how will we "prevent burnout" when it's literally also the thing we're asked to do?
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2025-01-09»
okay having pets really is hard and really holds up a mirror for yourself.
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2025-01-09»
when we talk about "the revolution will be from bed" why is no one talking about the roblox "march"... I still remember it it's funny and great imo unless there's something i didn't know.. right now protests themselves do nothing to the ruling class. one of their biggest function has stopped functioning. right now people justify the weekly free Palestine rallies because it" brings community together". so why not an online virtual space like roblox?? much safer and accessible. pretending things are normal* and we are all normal* goes against liberation.
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2025-01-09»
don't know/not sure if hating working a job is something I can "heal" (using the word loosely), but... the environment also needs to be so drastically different, and the workplace needs to show me that aggressively. the chances of some company doing this, at this point in time, is very unlikely
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2025-01-08»
("responding" to a event's covid notes) power holders (wether we talk about situational or constant privilege-power) always do this. inch as slowly towards progress as possible. just because they don't want to or it's hard. this exact action puts people at risk. individuals making changes in their life sometimes needs to go slowly for many reasons, like from not wearing masks at all, to wearing them in doctors office, to hopefully more. understand that. but power holders - you should be the one making sure people are safe when you have a say. you should be doing research (ask someone if you need help) and put forward the best thing you can come up with. you shouldn't leave this to literally the most vulnerable in your audience. hard to put into words. it's not like organising something suddenly makes you have more energy. I understand how burned out and under resourced organisers are. but they should honestly be included in the capacity calculation and if you can't do it, ask for help or change the event so that it's safe AND doable. it's annoying and this is everywhere... the progression is always - this happens. now we keep having to ask for more and eventually it's too much (they were never gonna meet our original demand of real safety) and now we are the bad guys... sometimes we decide you're not worth the effort and the potential conflict/gaslighting and we just leave. another mass movement lesson??
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2025-01-05»
whenever I choose a health/mental health practitioner to work with I'm always like... should I choose a white person that may have more "progressive" views.?? or should I choose a non white person who may understand some of my experiences easier but they might have bought too much white/colonial/capitalist etc crap anyway? (their age is a similar question)
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2025-01-04»
question - idk if Mad includes neurodivergent? I feel like it does or if you just look at the definition they may even mean mostly the same thing? but from a movement history perspective not really? also I don't experience hence don't have the experiences that comes with more different things that's Mad like altered states, multiplicity, and l'm not a psych survivor. so with all that, should I be saying when I'm talking about my experiences and reflections I'm talking about "mad propaganda"? I already know you can say "technically yes" and I know this is getting a bit nit picky maybe but the word choice shows fundamental understanding I feel, and this is something I'm a little confused about and would like people more involved in the movement clarify
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2024-12-31»
actually seriously finally thinking about creating, then almost immediately realising I need SO MUCH MORE INPUT. read, see, watch, experience, and discipline. a routine even.
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2024-12-30»
some more gender related thoughts after the other day's chat. I really hate that gender neutral/uni sex clothes are just men's clothes actually. like when a girl wears a boy's clothes it's unisex why isn't a boy wear a girls clothes unisex??? (and ok I know, many designers put a lot of thoughts into designing unisex, calling all of them "man's clothes is not completely accurate, but I hope you get what I'm saying) I want to wear girls clothes and IM STILL GENDER NEUTRAL YK
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2024-12-29»
"have lived experience" is so funny to me. do you mean there are people without "lived experience"? you mean someone who doesn't experience systematic oppression and abuse exists?? It also feels like a less "offensive" way to talk about the situation because the alternative is saying "I am from x group and I have experienced discrimination"
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2024-12-29»
this is not to criticise anyone but, i notice white people especially, will be like "we need to organise this and that, list your skills and list your needs" etc but at this point my first thought is is this person safe to help/help me?? at all?? and ofc white people can also have thoughts like mine but it's also mostly white people who come off as not aware of this or isn't so aware that this is the first thought. we need robust community as in, first literally build a safe environment, teach each other about communication and how disabilities can affect that and make it look different, talk about accountability and reflect together; support each other when something happens, not the backhanded compliment kind of support.. as of now i don't just trust anyone just because they're in a group. organising in this jumping-to-conclusion way has hurt so many people already.
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2024-12-28»
responding to "it's handmade that's why it's this price" with "but it's not that hard/doesn't take THAT long to make?!" sounds exactly like "but xyz is not a SKILLED job"...
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2024-12-23»
sometimes my "thinking thoughts" is actually feeling emotions
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2024-12-22»
I do feel some kind of way when people use a culture that's not theirs. especially significant things. (adopted, multi cultural family, living abroad for a long time is different; "reconnecting with your own culture" it depends unfortunately) and inviting people that's not from your culture to use your culture... like I'm not saying don't do it... and I'm not gonna be able to list you all the ok vs not ok scenarios... just saying...
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2024-12-21»
I think "rejection sensitivity" is a victim blaming label. there was a well known study that found "children with adhd hears x times more negative feedback than their non adhd peers" right? I don't care about the exact number here I just know it's way more and it's true. and I think that trains your brain into being hyper vigilant of anything negative. and by association, anything that can **possibly** be negative, whether it's something you do or something about you that can be perceived. and living in this world, which knows this statistics, but continues "as normal", keeps reinforcing this "sensitivity". you can do work in therapy, but it's still just fighting against the current. I just want to be able to go into the world, and do stuff and interact with people... this should be a basic human right tbh
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2024-12-19»
I still think we are all doing our best. but that doesn't mean we can't do a little more. sometimes the reason we're stuck is: - we don't have someone to talk to, someone who will listen and understand and support - we get stuck in some type of thinking and needs someone to talk us out of it - we need to recharge in community - we have some deep down bias or ideas or frameworks that's holding us back, that we need to unlearn community is such a key to every one of these.
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2024-12-15»
if you have a relationship with a covid cautious person, and you're gonna see each other, and if you don't take as much precautions as they do, and you both know it - bring it up as part of the conversation! I know it seems like we are talking about it all the time so we should be ok with bringing it up, but it's seriously such a relief to not have to do it for once! there's Always so much stress around it every single time. and it shows them you care enough to do it! pls be proactive. it's very kind and helpful.
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2024-12-14»
is it a thing where you're too tired to actually do stuff but not too tired to doomscroll so that becomes what you do 😭 what do you all do in that situation? try to really rest and recover or give in to the temptations :')
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2024-12-13»
coloniser's sheep and wool is not "natural and eco friendly". thought sparked by Allara.
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2024-12-12»
going to a doctor or a "mental health professional" is incredably vulnerable. idk if that's a universal feeling, it must be? and the absolute power they have to require that level of vulnerability without Any conditions to be met from ME because I need their "help".
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2024-12-10»
the longer I'm here the more it feels like a larger portion of people than I expect treat liberation movement like another entertainment ☠
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2024-12-10»
women in chains, women in cages, is not a metaphor
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2024-12-09»
so much higher of a percentage of Chinese people (in china) are absolutely fine with AI. actively embracing it and finding ways to use it or even make money by using it. contemplating more developments. basically treating it as neutral or good.
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2024-12-08»
I've been thinking... colonialism capitalism primes people (especially people benefiting from it) for fascism. then, colonial capitalism is doomed to fail eventually. at that time, even the people who have been benefiting will begin to suffer. but at that time, they will also naturally take on fascism as the "logical" next step...
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2024-12-06»
just realised new phones don't have a headphones port anymore
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2024-11-15»
it's always when you're "better" and you look at the past however many months and you realise wow how did I live like that
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2024-11-09»
contributing to mutual aid in an amount that matches your non essential spending is a good habit. if you're not doing it now, work towards it. talk about it. if you do do it talk about how come too. and I know it can be hard to define what's non essential, especially considering mental health and disability. I trust you all to have that judgement and refine it over time. but pls keep moving forward.
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2024-11-08»
how unsafe our "community" spaces are hurts my soul
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2024-10-30»
reduce expectation of self - find out self can get/is even more disabled! haha... when will this end? when can I know myself again?
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2024-10-30»
(prompted by a conversation) thinking about big, centralised campaigns vs smaller, individual ones. there has to be both. the big campaigns seem official and trustworthy and can pull a lot of funds... but it's still not gonna cover everything (of course). more people should do more, whichever they contribute their work to.
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2024-10-28»
in this essay I will talk about translation and the assumption that things are translatable
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2024-10-28»
I thik participating in mutual aid (and any kind of revolutionary action tbh) makes u really see and feel how complicit we are. and that's not a reason to turn away from it.
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2024-10-26»
because rn community is so limited, it feels extra precious.. because it's so precarious to maintain, we gatekeep it. this is not anyone's fault but the fact that "community" is such a rare and limited "thing". love is. care is. extra energy for each other is. it's a vicious cycle.
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2024-10-25»
good writing is like drugs fr
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2024-10-25»
watching more abled people go forawrd in life while I rot and become more isolated (I'm getting better at some stuff too, but it's far from "enough", it doesn't make a tangible difference, not fast enough, and a lot of times not recognised, and because of everything else, hard to actually "put into use")
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2024-10-25»
I keep having dreams where I forgot to wear a mask... it's terrifying (and by posting this I found out I'm not alone)
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2024-10-22»
china or the han people or some somehow-categorised people(*)(but it's the majority that aligns with bigger structural direction) didn't have true collectivism. what we had, or what was pushed/established, may be called collectivist-patriarchy. (*trying to not make a blanket statement because there are small communities that are different, but I don't know enough to categorise properly) capitalism... it's complicated and I don't know enough. But the conflict and oppression between land owners and farmers/workers started early and has been present continously. but neo liberal capitalism is certainly an issue in the presetn day. so now it should be called collectivist capitalistic patriarchy?
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2024-10-21»
I feel isolated again. the cycle, the vortex of isolation. we (living in a capitalistic colonial society) are all in it or (speaking very generously) at the edge of it.
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2024-10-21»
community have given me courage to disagree with popular people.
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2024-10-16»
nature is good because you can scream really really loud
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2024-10-11»
really what happened recently showed me so much and have taught me so much. one super important one is showed me and shifted my thinking around literally every aspect of how to do things. we're meant to do things together. and i know we talk about it all the time but to have grew up in a capitalistic colonial society (yes china too) and have faced continuous, not only structural but also personal isolation, I really didn't get it. and only now I can see how that was the case.
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2024-10-10»
code switching & autistic/neurodivergent masking.
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2024-10-08»
I don't think i really understood how much we were supposed to rely on each other
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2024-10-08»
being forced to take a step back and be the mediator and care taker of emotions as you're processing your own hurt as the one/side with less power/privileges, is a pattern I see often
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2024-10-08»
i need ~~to not exist~~ someone to hold my hand at all times
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2024-10-07»
the things you need to have or do, or even know, to be "prepared for climate change" are so inaccessible. seeing people talk about it as if we don't Want to get prepared is so annoying. the things you consider easy or cheap is STILL inaccessible to many. why don't you distribute it to others then if you're so concerned. even just distributing knowledge for free (in an accessible way). people love to talk about skill sharing! we need to share our skills! bro I'm here waiting for u to share ur skills 😭
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2024-10-06»
(cw mention of not existing) thinking about not existing or wishing to not exist or wishing that you don't have to deal with it all anymore isn't even that extreme right??
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2024-10-05»
I miss culture... and it's easy to only think of the beauty and benefits when you only see it on social media/from a distance, and ignore the hard work, the consistency, the skill... the difficulty of old and new... but there really isn't another way to be...
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2024-10-02»
when you can't even nostalsia in peace because it's tainted by consumerism and an overt effort of distraction, in which people literally think Everything in the past was perfect and the issues were actually non-issues... and the fact that I don't just miss the past, or even a simpler life/time, but I miss the time when I used to have a home... aaaaand "Asian aesthetic".
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2024-09-29»
taking it each silly moment as they come
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2024-09-25»
you know when we tak about how recycling is not the answer and people who can't even be bothered to recycle properly think we are talking about them 😭
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2024-09-23»
I'm thinking about taking care of myself differently today. I take care of myself because I need care. I amd a thing that needs care to live. and I can be one that provide some of that care to myself. there's no "failing", just things that needs to be done.
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2024-09-15»
adults hate kids for real
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2024-09-13»
it's time to stop pretending the most violent manefestation of white supremacy is somehow separate from the more mild forms. call it out. it's not "israel is a deranged society". it's a manefestation of white supremacy and colonialism. it's not "cops are getting too violent". it's a manefestation of white supremacy and colonialism. it's not "billionaires are greedy and out of touch". it's a manefestation of colonialism and capitalism. it's all of yall(us), always. be constantly aware. this may be tiring but it's literally the foundation of you being an ally. the foundation of being an ally is NOT just willing to listen and reflect or even come to actions when called upon. it's being acutely aware of reality. if only we are on the same page about reality (as close as possible), we can act together.
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2024-09-12»
This is something I'm only recently* learning and slowly embodying (stating fact not excuse). trust before anything. and people don't owe their oppressors trust. when working with marginalised people that you don't share experience with or are more heavily impacted by systemic violence than u (defining comparison is hard but you'll be able to tell when u see it), they don't owe us feedback, they don't owe us "let me tell you why you fucked up" analysis. We need that, but don't wait for someone to tell you you fucked up. And if the roles are reversed we don't owe the other side that either. Accountability is truly a gift. This applies to race/white supremacy, class, disability, gender, etc
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2024-09-11»
no more coddling
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2024-09-11»
miss my grandma. she's a matriarch fr
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2024-09-11»
be merciless in your criticism to fellow white people, n white supremacy is the least a white ally can do. doesnt mean you have to call them names but call it for what it is.
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2024-09-11»
my good friend today just said to me... (telling me about a time when they were researching about bpd and cluster b disorders) "so much bullshit out there... people are not critical thinking... this just reinforce the system" which is like soooooo right AAAAHHHH WE KNOW. listen to mad people.
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2024-09-10»
I feel like I relate to PDA in a weird way? ("I don't hate socks because I have a System" lol) the most common thing other people say is "if someone ask me to do a thing suddenly it becomes impossible to do the thing" and I don't feel like I relate to that. but any time there's a delayed expectation from other people or an external deadline (eg. meet up with a friend on a certain day, post thing by x date, event I want to go), often as time tick closer, i would feel an urge to just not go/prepare and cancel.
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2024-09-09»
listen when people teach...
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2024-09-09»
the other day I talked about cooking n authenticity n basically cultural appropriation. just want to clarify that it's ok for you to take a recipe from a culture, mess with it, eat it enjoy it even cook it for others, share that recipe... just don't come on your platform and preach about "oooOooh what IS authenticity anyway" lmaoooo. also fusion is suss a lot of times. it's cool and all and the creativity and experimentation is great, but why is most of Asian/"ethnic" food expected to be cheap, while fusion is suddenly high class, especially when a white person does it? why you take an isolated element from it to "be different" while young people of our own are leaving centries old crafts behind because they will not be able to live a decent life if they choose to continue the life of the craft? why lots of traditional foods suddenly become "super food" "climate solution" when a white person pays attention to it while the general category of "ethnic food" is looked down on and traditional cultural and land knowledge is dismissed, and the place and climate those foods naturally gown are destroyed or gentrified? again... it's all connected
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2024-09-09»
literally, one piece.
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2024-09-09»
"pandemic grief" is like ok?? it is real, and it will never be addressed on a state level, but damn. (this was very long but I decided to not repeat it. maaaayyybe will write long piece but also people have already written about this)
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2024-09-08»
do we truly understand, comprehend, that (for so so many of us) to continue to live in this world, REQUIRES a level of detatchment, dissociation? even if we do all the right things, have the right people for us around, it's still just... so hard to continue to know and witness and at the same time participate in the very same world. I want to say that shows how deeply fucked everything is. That is dehumanisation. Every day, every moment.
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2024-09-08»
sharing sooicide ideation is vulnerable as hell. remember this <3
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2024-09-08»
the more well resourced someone is (not just cash), literally the more selfish they are. we need to unlearn that shit.
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2024-09-07»
even in the deepest loudest pain there is yearning for life (NOT inspirational)
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2024-09-07»
I been thinking about what made a lot of "strong" cultures and nations those cultures formed, have a patriarchal society.
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2024-09-05»
wish time isn't a thing
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2024-09-05»
i miss my land.
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2024-09-04»
the fact that people are misunderstanding "亚比" is willllddddd
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2024-09-02»
Blak baby dies in hospital from a covid infection. Not enough people talk about this (altho understand privacy and respect). Are we catching on ONE top systemic issue with EACH incident and happy enough or are we gonna see and LINK all of them??
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2024-09-02»
it's all "people do whatever they have the tools to achieve" until it's someone "narcissistic".
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2024-09-01»
remembering sometimes dysregulation is the baseline
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2024-08-31»
I be side eyeing every time a white person says their project/business "just kind of happened" "organically evolved" and shit like that
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2024-08-29»
sometimes you really just gotta do nothing. waste time.
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2024-08-28»
even a walkable neighborhood is still to o loud with cars. and living in an apartment is just like living in a box. a cage. a box that is artificial and I have to maintain in this artificial state
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2024-08-27»
maybe I should just accept that going out is hard :') sometimes we can do hard things but not necessarily always
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2024-08-27»
it's wild to look back on the time when I still tried to make friends to prove I'm Normal lol
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2024-08-24»
are there really people who learned healthy emotional expression/have it modelled to them as they grow up??
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2024-08-22»
please just stop critisising/shaming people who "overshare"/"have a public breakdown"/etc. you may have good intentions, like worrying about the internet fueling the negative, privacy, etc. but it's just the same as policing people's emotional expression and preferred way to process stuff/have social connections. It's giving "I think X is better for you/I think you should control yourself and act like a normal person", it's paternalistic, it's infantalising, it's ableism and sanism. It's giving not understanding disability justice. Pls stop thinking it's something any individual should comment on as a whole. When people do this they Always make blanket statements and assumptions that are untrue. So just stop embarrasing yall selves. (this is heavily paraphrased from the original post)
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2024-08-22»
I do actually feel some kind of way when men and some others (queer folks and women is more case by case) use the word bitch in an insult and it's not really about the identity of the person. I have a problem with people using the word that way in general. But it's especially some kind of way if the person is in any way affiliated or adjacent to the identity and experience of men/masculinity (or in women's case, people who try to get safety etc by become patriarchy's helpers), and or distance from which of women. It makes me think of this quote:/ "sorry to". I'm sorry, if in an attempt to reclaim the word, you probably reinforced how women are so casually dehumanised in the general society and collective consciousness, that women's existence is a criticism anyway. I wish it doesn't work like this too, but it probably continue to be like this because the fundamental reality have not changed, despite a lot of women making progress in the society they're in. And if you were just using the word casually, really think about it more.
I've been seeing this somewhat regularly in progressive spaces (not a surprise tbh, just look at misogyny in "leftism"). And at the end of the day I don't Get A Say in how other people do things but this is my offering to you. -
2024-08-22»
still thinking about the fact that my ma have been just refusing to give me correct prescription for my glasses. I have been denied a clear vision by her since I was 6. And now, my vision has declined so bad that even with the right prescription, I probably can't see clearly anyway in most conditions unless the object is just the perfect distance away or something. Last time I went by myself, and I wasn't even sure if "simply accept the prescription" is the right thing to do. My body felt like I'm missing a step by not arguing back. That's how it is. And doctor didn't actually give me the correct prescription anyway because I was lagging behind a lot and a big increase like that would be uncomfortable.
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2024-08-21»
it's becoming harder to put things into words the more I realise how things are really all connected. possible reasons:/ too many people typing in brain server/english coloniser language/haven't learned words/expressions that I did not know exist before/brain fog??
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2024-08-18»
thinking about tragic heterosexual romance. maybe girls* ask "what do you like about me" actually asking "do you even know anything about me"
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2024-08-17»
whenever western science be like "X life form is more complex that we thought" I want to kill
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2024-08-15»
when you know to do lists work but the list is in the other room
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2024-08-08»
the fact that fundraisers that offers something in return does better than the ones that don't. even if people don't actually take the "rewards" it still pushes a button in your brain it seems. really think about this and try to act differently.
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2024-08-08»
idk but the western version of gender dysphoria is... not universal?
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2024-08-05»
astrology vs psychology is soooooo interesting
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2024-08-04»
I'm mad that I ever let it happen
but it was the norm... to let it happen
resistance was like something that can only exist in concept. in thought.
but i know better now -
2024-08-02»
realising you're indeed "not normal"(*) is a rebirth every time
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2024-08-02»
Chinese culture/Chinese influence on Asian culture/Asian culcure similarities and differences on a high level/western misunderstanding/glorification of Japan & Korea/"Asian fishing"/culture appropriation
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2024-08-02»
the feeling of being watched
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2024-07-31»
Japanese entitlement and history revisionism. let's talk about it.
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2024-07-27»
similar to how the alien species experience time - non linearly, my brain experience thoughts non linearly. Whole sentences or even multiple paragraphs at the same time. sometimes I cannot possibly organise them into expressions before some or all are gone.
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2024-07-26»
the assumptions in big/popular/mainstream games/genres of games can tell us SO MUCH..... maybe write about this one day (in 10 years)
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2024-07-26»
"My ADHD was unmedicated so I struggled in school/uni/adult life/whatever"... do you see from this that it's literally to make us fall in line and produce...????? like unmedicated ADHD can be very hard to live with and get to where u wanna be and be the person u wanna be, the grief is so valid, and choosing meds is not the problem!! but don't u see the point of it, the fact that it's The Thing being pushed for ADHD, is literally to tame u and make u a good worker. and how much of "get to where u wanna be" is just secure housing and access to healthcare and a generally safe and stable life and hobbies and love and joy. how much of "the person u wanna be" is a reward and punishment system set up again to make u a good worker and consumer. like. this is not very well put but
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2024-07-26»
the way privileged people can experience shit from the systems and not have a good time at all then still find trust in them and basically gaslight themselves - I can't
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2024-07-26»
dead end everywhere until I found out we can believe ourselves (mad liberation) and we are enough for each other (mutual aid). now I have more hope than ever before.
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2024-07-24»
traditionally successful people that found out they're nd later in life. so interesting.
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2024-07-24»
the way the world casually take everything from nd people, without appreciation, and we're still treated like subhuman... it's systematic, so even if the people you directly interact with are respectaful, u still come home feeling fucked
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2024-07-24»
context is a powerful thing. not having full context is almost like a power imbalance
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2024-07-23»
what is reality? what is reason?
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2024-07-23»
when it is demanded people speak in a "respectaful" way who is being respected? what is actually happening when "respect" is demanded? esp when from a place of authority, norm, keeping peace, instead of for equal communication & exist together comfortably
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2024-07-21»
joy, escape - we do need them. but let's talk about how to make them available for each other, not just for self. take care of each other. take on that project so another community member can rest etc.
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2024-07-21»
China isn't gonna "save" HK or Taiwan. No western power is gonna "save" them either. these 2 powers created the situation what are you talking about
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2024-07-20»
recently I've been saying what my body is doing/feeling when I don't know how to resond to something with words. it's actually helping me to take a moment and feel stuff!
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2024-07-20»
in modern western philosophy there's "god is dead". what kind of god dies? what kind of society kills god? what kind of society required its god to die?
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2024-07-19»
are leftists "tearing each other down"? is "the left iseating itself"? or is it some people are trying to give feedback and some people are throwing a fit about it? let's be clear on this.
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2024-07-19»
love talking and sense making together
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2024-07-18»
who suddenly don't get to be your community when they disagree with you? when they bring awareness to the harm you cause?
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2024-07-18»
whenever I see people talk about "getting accessible things that are "more wasteful"/more expensive/"lazy" is valid" I genuinely wish we have alternatives. like community kitchen where things are made in big batches & different people can share tasks to lessen the workload etc. I don't want to just "normalise accessible things even if they are a little wasteful", I want none of it. I want an alternative. I never buy cut veg because I hate supermarkets and they will not have a single extra cent from me.
also when these things are in the mainstream, it's always "convenience" (fuck convenience), "for people short on time" (we are short on time by design and it's not the only way), and even "so you can enjoy life more" (as if cutting veg is why we don't have time; specialising stuff away out of communities into factories and minmaxing activities OF LIFE is not the way to enjoy life) -
2024-07-18»
so much violence is normalised and invisible. to turn an eye to it, to say its name, to witness without fixing, is revolutionary.
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2024-07-16»
if I keep thinking about it, the answer is community and mutual aid and an alternative economic system fr. like if I want to unsubscribe from working for a boss/capitalist, the most common/easy-to-think-of approach is to use my skills and time to do a product or service for people who need/want it, to earn money and pay for my needs - which is a lot of work, usually not able to make living wage, and, ultimately depend on people's free cash, which I see getting smaller and smaller as capitalism eats itself. It seems impossible at each and every step because this is still operating in the same broader system and this system is anti life.
the alternative is, I can be (work towards being) an integral part of a community, I am there for everyone, and everyone will be there for me. the basic assumptions are completely different, which "side hustles" etc can never address. it's not about "job satisfaction", or being your own boss and being in full control, or being able to unleash your creativity, or finding your purpose. time to move out of those, we can dream bigger. -
2024-07-16»
I love how we're embracing the weird now. not just on a personal aesthetic and identity level. no no no no. but weird as in refusing to participate in the bloodthirsty systems. weird as in doing our own thing AND creating our own community that can materially support each other - not one without the other. weird as in being our full human self which shed light on abuse and surface our lived wisdoms and let us connect with not just human kin but also non human kin. weird as in radical love and acceptance.
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2024-07-12»
nd unmasking is healing work. it can be painful from the inside.
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2024-07-12»
revolution is fundamentally creative
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2024-07-12»
being in public can be so stressful because people really show you how little they care about THEIR OWN CHILD sometimes
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2024-07-12»
accountability is not lateral violence.
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2024-07-11»
It's icky to get paid with money/make others pay money if I do any mental health work. Money that person have to exchange with their labour prior somehow. Money that I only want because I need to "pay bills". All made up by a class of people to create scarcity and supress our natural power and agency.
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2024-07-11»
When navigating the world and being in the world... "I am able to be understood" is honestly a base assumption that needs to be named bc not all of us have that
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2024-07-09»
In a meeting when I was asked "how are you", broke the script and didn't say something to the effect of "good", my coworker started to say stuff like "don't let it get you down it's not worth it" 😂
At that moment it really felt like there's a "script" and he's just following it 😂 -
2024-07-04»
Sometimes I really think about the fact that I get discouraged from sewing because I can't make it perfect but fast fashion pump out stuff that you can't even call (properly) finished
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2024-07-04»
When we just go on and live "normally" we are actually abandoning each other. To stop abandoning and to stop being abandoned we need to act for each other. This is true with protesting our tax money going to the war machine, and true with masking against covid 19.
Caring (and doing) feels so difficult and "out of the way" because it isn't programmed into the system like extraction and oppressive hierarchies are. But we have to build the alternative world. -
2024-07-04»
Can we make what happened to Palestine, to the resistance happen to masking and learning up to date science covid?
Can people come and understand it and then support it with their whole chest & with action? Can we get that?
Or does it require too much inner work, too much deprogramming when it's covid?? you see what I'm talking about?? -
2024-07-03»
the phenomenon of "women helps their hudsband/male partner in a major way that could/did hurt themselves and got dumped" is very interesting maybe I'll rant on it one day
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2024-07-02»
The way this society ruthlessly take take take anything it can from neurodivergent people and still don't see us as humans
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2024-07-02»
The attitude of "we can agree to disagree" *within* a marginalised community often comes from the same unwillingness to look deeper into WHY you disagree and just want surface peace/lack of obvious tension/conflict, that people can easily call out when it comes from a privilidged group/person onto said community.
It's giving privilege, it's giving aligning with the oppressor, it's giving replicating the structures we claim to be taking down. -
2024-07-01»
The fact that this so called country is genocidal becomes very obvious (once again) when you try to go to work with a mask just to protect yourself and get fired on the spot. (not me)
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2024-07-01»
I want to believe "mask highly encouraged" can help, but I'm struggling to actually believe so because there are little evidence. I still mostly get "hiding behind the shield of 'I have asked masks HIGHLY ENCOURAGED'" vibes bc it doesn't feel like being covid safe is *actually* a priority, combines with other little telling details...
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2024-07-01»
I am finding... when we think of our neurodivergent traits or needs as "contradictory"... we are looking at it from a neurotypical perspective already.
It is because of the perspective and framing, that things look contradictory. they may not be "inherently contradictory". -
2024-06-30»
I think the expectation we have on ourselves to be completely consistent, and to be completely consistent in "getting better at this" can also come from a place of re-creating harmful hierarchy within ourselves, rather than the genuine(?) need to escalate. It's just like "healing is not linear", just like no to perfectionism (internalised capitalism).
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2024-06-27»
so guys are now saying stuff like "girl code and girl solidarit is blinding you"?? NOT GIRL CODE bc we called the behaviour in men to protect each other to keep benefiting from & uphold the patriarchy "boy/bro code"???? THE IRONY THE LACK OF SELF AWARENESS THE SELF VICTIMISATION
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2024-06-26»
I really don't want to monetise things ever. If I can gather ingredients, cook for people, host a dinner/gathering (while being covid safe!!!), meal prep for people, give lessons on cooking and other skills, host sharing circles or support circles, share my writings, ANYTHING, I don't wanna charge money for that!! there are so many reasons and I just don't. If I have something you want or need I'd just give it.
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2024-06-26»
I need to have an honest conversation about property/home ownership. Is it really ok if I don't redistribute it? But my parents really want a place here. This in my heart has become just about the contradiction of these 2
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2024-06-25»
In revolutionary circles I feel many people have a bit of an off understanding of this "my mental health vs movement" thing. And it's not our fault, it's the systems keeping us down and pitting us against each other for crumbs. May write about this in future
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2024-06-24»
(chickies death rant. fill later)
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2024-06-23»
Why can someone step (hard) on my foot, turn around look at me and be like "oopsie" *cute and pure and carefree smile* and just TURN BACK???? LET'S TALK ABOUT IT.
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2024-06-23»
(from reel) Interracial relationship for Asian people/as a Chinese person. Interesting topic
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2024-06-23»
Good points made about MA/building community/contributing. Not fear based. When people talk about "all out for Gaza... but don't burn yourself out" something deeper is often mising.
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2024-06-21»
CW SA rant.
Men "no one cares when our fellow men get r*ped by women??!! not fair!!!"
Men *write/direct/approve casual sa/harassment from women to men in media and be like "oooOooOoo" about it*
(casual sa in media ofc also include MEN TO WOMEN, they both uphold rape culture and objectifying women and victim blaming) -
2024-06-20»
"What does putting the customer at the centre mean to you?"
It means when I'm a customer I'm supposed to be the most superior being because I make the capitalist loop of production complete, because of this I'm almost worshipped and put above other people that has different roles (like the salesperson/customer service, the "workers") at that point of the cycle (because I'm the main component). This is supposed to reward my participation and make me come back for more but it's actually only to distract from the fact that when the circle is complete, when I stop being a customer, I fall back to being the worker and I get friking exploited -
2024-06-19»
psych practitioners or even neurodivergent people's attitude when getting called out that they are not truely neuroaffirming or not understanding the evolving perspectives of neurodiversity. post by Sonny. very interesting may write
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2024-06-19»
I feel some kind of way when popular feminists be like "oh I just don't date men", and usually it's accompanied with a sea of agreement and praise. like I guess you are free to have a personal opinion... but it's not about that it's about how it shapes the space.
for many of us, we can only look to an online community of feminists. the loudest voices in the online space matter. when we come across and get into a space hoping to finally make sense of things and be understood, and in some aspects you do feel seen, but then some other aspects is conflicting with your own experience, it can be confusing. especially being a poc and trying to "learn feminism" from white women lol
anyway... even "just not dating men/get married" comes with privilge. and remember... privilge doesn't mean you have it easy, it means some hurdles that others have to overcome is not there for you. -
2024-06-19»
AI art rant. I can get it if people have the desire to use it personally, altho I would't follow thru on that desire knowing it'a all stolen and using it just further normalise corporations stealing from us not just art but everything.
also, hot take but try to find an artist that can work with you on a small budget or even for free is still better than using AI art. (there's also obviously the choice of not involving an artist and do it yourself) If you reach out to a bunch of people, that's a start of a relationship, that's community building. skill sharing is community building. and we need to be creative about it and create alternative systems that doesn't involve money.
and I get that artists are sick of doing free work so this has to be non exploitative. don't just use an artist then discard them. again it's about community. this may all be a lot of work to organise but isn't that exactly the work we are doing? -
2024-06-18»
I think autistic people (that have certain personality traits/history (of trauma lol)) can be really good at deconstructing socialinteractions, subtext, subconscious belief that comes through in a conversation, because that's how we were able to survive and or got any love we needed.
but we're still not necessarily "good at socialising"? yk -
2024-06-18»
thinking about all the conversations that went wrong lol. and it usually happens in similar ways. we would say oh its because we are autistic. there's just some NT code we can't crack.
but I see it more and more between autistic/ND people too. (and not excluding the possibility that some of these people are not actually NT and are unidentified ND?)
So now I'm more incliend to say the conversations "go wrong" not because some inherent differences of ND and NT people, but it's because of ableism and internalised ableism. -
2024-06-18»
Let's talk about the casual ableism in calling how ND people speak and interact "rude" "condesending" "arrogant", and refusing to give something you knee-jerk feel like is "rude" some benefit of the doubt... People are not ready to have a nuanced conversation about this. And this is why justice must be intersectional, include interpersonal justice, and people working towards justice all need to do healing work...
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2024-06-17»
Saw post on "rigid thinking" and "sense of justice". very interesting want to write
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2024-06-17»
Seeing a photo of an art gallery/installation and realising I have never seen things that clearly from that kind of distance 😭 I was denied access to seeing the world clearly. My ma wouldn't give me my correct prescription because she doesn't want my eyes to "rely too much on the glasses". Looking back now this is such a classic ableist line. Children is the biggest oppressed class fr.
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2024-06-17»
Since the most recent development of western philosophy is so dependent on individualism, I can't help but wonder what a/the indigenous field of philosophy would look like. I know China but it's not quite that comparable. I also wonder about the field of mental health/psychology the same way.
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Random thought on father's day. After developing my feminism I had a few arguments/fights with my dad when my parents visited. After a few times my ma asked me privately "do you have some deep resentment for your dad from childhood?" because she doesn't understand why I got so mad. and that's funny to me... it's not like that at all. I do resent him but it's more retroactively and for all men, all the shit that men have given me including his. It's just when he's in the same space as me and we sort of have a close relationship (more involved/more interactions even if forced) it's hard to ignore how it's all connected and still happening and hard to hide how I feel about it all the time.
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Thinking about how a lot of activism spaces can be 1) totally lacking in mad liberation and disability justice and 2) lacking in understanding of personal and collective healing, cptsd, generational trauma etc
but love to bring up shame!
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Thinking about how capitalism and patriarchy interacts with collectivism in the east, and how it interacts with individualism in the west
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